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This is a post I wrote a month after my Dad died and I was trying to figure out what normal was and how to get there. It took me many more weeks and a couple months to be ready to blog again, as I am today. Sometimes things in life really throw me for a loop. My Dad’s death is one of those things. I still get thrown for a loop at times. Like the piece of mail I got this week. I’ve gotten decent at swallowing a bit, at least in the moment – sometimes. The trick is to not keep it swallowed and pushed away. The trick is still to allow myself to feel it, while also keeping on.

Either way, I’m opening some of my raw to you now. It trickles out slowly, not because I don’t want to talk about my Dad’s death, although I kind of don’t, more so because I don’t want to Only talk about my Dad’s death. My life is more than my Dad’s death. Just as my life is more than Motherhood. So, thank you, once again, for listening.

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I may not be fully ready to get into the entire swing of all things blogging and business, but I know it’s coming. I’m feeling a little better during the days. I can see a bit more clearly the sun that’s shining. I can feel a bit more than numbness and sadness and pain. A little day hike with my 3 wonderful guys the other day certainly helped. The freshness of mountain air, breathing and moving the body, and seeing the sights.

sky, mountain, march 2016, stone mountain

Not many photos were taken, which is a bit out of the ordinary for us. Or more specifically, for me. But I was present. I was there in the mountains with my guys and we were hiking. We were breathing. We were moving our bodies.

And my dad was there, too.

He was there in my thoughts as I looked at the expansiveness of the earth below us and knew he’d have enjoyed the view. I knew he’d have loved to be there with us. That even in the few photos we took, he’d have enjoyed hearing about the hike and the family time we had.

water, trees, sun, forest, adventure, family, march, 2016, stone mountain

water, trees, sun, forest, adventure, family, march, 2016, stone mountain

After all, when I was a wee little girl, my parents would take us up in the mountains often. They walked and they did.

So, in continuing on with my love of the outdoors and adventure, I’m living my dad’s dream and his legacy.

He’s in me.

I am a part of him and I will always have him with me.

My life may be a little different now, especially as I can imagine much of what I do from this point forward will be for my dad, in some way or another. Yet, my life is also the same.

There’s the sameness of growing a family.

Of loving others.

Adventuring.

Of exploring.

Of connecting.

And living.

All while being.

moon, sky, mountain, tree, stone mountain, march 2016

So, just as we wrote in the program for my Dad’s Celebration of Life service, his legacy lives on.

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On Hiking and Legacy
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2 thoughts on “On Hiking and Legacy

  • July 27, 2016 at 11:20 pm
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    I love your thoughts about your dad. I’m sure he would be very happy to know that you’re getting out and moving and thinking of him as you go hiking in such beautiful surroundings. Hope you are feeling better every day.

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    • July 28, 2016 at 10:38 am
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      Jenny, it’s definitely a struggle more sometimes than others. I know that I have to keep going though, for me and for my family. I’m really glad that I got to know and understand my Dad more and so even though he’s now physically gone from my life, I have so much to remember and hold of him. 🙂

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